No matter what I do, whether I perform in my dream show in a dream location with dream audiences or I become a waitress instead, there will be train-dinner-lonely moments. Ultimately, its about what you're "meant" to do. I always think of my favorite book, Franny and Zooey by J.D. Salinger:
"Somewhere along the line — in one damn incarnation or another, if you like — you not only had a hankering to be an actor or an actress but to be a good one. You're stuck with it now. You can't just walk out on the results of your own hankerings. Cause and effect, buddy, cause and effect. The only thing you can do now, the only religious thing you can do, is act. Act for God, if you want to — be God's actress, if you want to. What could be prettier? You can at least try to, if you want to — there's nothing wrong in trying." There was a slight pause. "You'd better get busy, though, buddy. The goddam sands run out on you every time you turn around. I know what I'm talking about. You're lucky if you get time to sneeze in this goddam phenomenal world."
I can't just walk out on the results of my own hankerings. So, dinner on the train it is. And I'm glad to eat it, thankful for all that lays before me.
This is awesome. I love so many things about your space, especially your name. I cannot however fathom someone who enjoys flossing. I'm seriously baffled.
ReplyDeleteComing over from Casey. Excited to follow your journey here =)