I feel naive. Weepy and naive. I assumed I would want to go back to work- because I do love working hard and creating and innovating. It is in my work that I have so often rooted who I am.
And then there was Alice.
Suddenly, I am a mom. Never before have I known such a depth of intimacy, fulfillment, and calling. I am meant to be this tiny person's mom. I love her in a way that shocks me every day. I already anticipate the conversations we will have over Red Rose tea when we are both much older. And the thought of going back to work breaks my stinkin' heart.
As I said- weepy and naive.
I Google-d "working vs staying home." It was relatively helpful. One link I clicked relayed the wisdom that we are all- working or not- trying to do the best for our kids. Whether we work or stay at home, we all want the best for these tiny people whom we love so desperately.
[deep breath]
No matter where the number crunching of our budget leaves us in a few weeks I want to remember that, no matter what, Jake and I are doing our best for Alice. We couldn't do any less than that.
Are you a parent? How did you decide if you'd head back to work once a little one entered your life?
And then there was Alice.
Suddenly, I am a mom. Never before have I known such a depth of intimacy, fulfillment, and calling. I am meant to be this tiny person's mom. I love her in a way that shocks me every day. I already anticipate the conversations we will have over Red Rose tea when we are both much older. And the thought of going back to work breaks my stinkin' heart.
As I said- weepy and naive.
I Google-d "working vs staying home." It was relatively helpful. One link I clicked relayed the wisdom that we are all- working or not- trying to do the best for our kids. Whether we work or stay at home, we all want the best for these tiny people whom we love so desperately.
[deep breath]
No matter where the number crunching of our budget leaves us in a few weeks I want to remember that, no matter what, Jake and I are doing our best for Alice. We couldn't do any less than that.
Are you a parent? How did you decide if you'd head back to work once a little one entered your life? 
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